words:*run around in circles*
Thankyou muchly!!!!!!!!!!
mwah
xo
Kaylan
Night Dream
Shine up the party
lift your skirts
dance the night away
across the ocean floor.
Transform your wings and
fold them away.
They can hide away
untill another day.
Because tonight
we're gonna sail away....
Breaking sunlight
distant moonlight howls whilse I sleeep.
Transforming moonlight
a wolf withing it's teeth am I,
while dreaming of this night.
A gentle curse
flows slowely into the creek.
A mud filled bath absorbes your body heat.
And when the passion stirs
we will hold ourselves against each other
Because tonight
we're gonna sail away....
Breaking sunlight
distant moonlight howls whilse I sleeep.
Transforming moonlight
a wolf withing it's teeth am I,
while dreaming of this night.
An ocean road on the moon.
If all your life has been a dream,
where do you suppose you've been
when you were awake?...
Breaking sunlight
distant moonlight howls whilse I sleeep.
Transforming moonlight
a wolf withing it's teeth am I,
while dreaming of this night.
Swirl
Handprints show only what's left
I had a friend who once knew my name.
An ocean mirror reflects what's inside me
drinking my presence and my face.
I can feel the haunting
grabbing at my eyes.
I can feel the laughing
tearing at my disguise.
Open your eyes
and sat sail with me.
Pumpkin eyes staring at you
a haunting expression
deep within depression.
A candle shows your age and how long you've got left,
stir me round.
I can feel the haunting
grabbing at my eyes.
I can feel the laughing
tearing at my disguise.
Open your eyes
and sat sail with me.
And the collection
of pastels
that I make into my world
are beauty at it's best
so many colours are one.
Cut into me
watch me bleed.
Watch me breathe.
I can feel the haunting
grabbing at my eyes.
I can feel the laughing
tearing at my disguise.
Open your eyes
and sat sail with me.
I hear the sweet call of the dark
I want to press forward.
Though somehow I can't bring myself to move one.
My twisted memories are two deep within my well of pain.
I still remember the tortured call of my heart
Slowely I denied it and It withered inside me.
Somehow I move on, though inside I'm still asleep.
I want to go back to my white tomb and cease to be.
I want to go backwards
down the deep path and beyond this world.
Footsteps into the unknown
reaping all I've sown.
I still remember the tortured call of my heart
Slowely I denied it and It withered inside me.
Somehow I move on, though inside I'm still asleep.
I want to go back to my white tomb and cease to be.
I want to lie in myself
die in myself
sleep in myself
trap myself in myself.
A strager I must be to become immune to this pain.
So I shall travel the path of the dark.
I'll press on...
Somehow I move on, though inside I'm still asleep.
I want to go back to my white tomb and cease to be.
hey!
i really like that poem! i like the tone - it seems older, more wise and contemplative. i really like that about it. its like a reflection on something.
its very sad - it seems to be about loss, and wanting to stand still and remember that pain and grief. its very good Kaylan. it makes me feel regretful - not about anything in my life, i try really hard not to have regrets, and to treat everything as a life experience and a lesson, something i can learn from - but i felt regret for the person telling the poem.
i liked the other ones too - sorry i haven't written something more comprehensive abou them - alot of your poems seem to deal with the same subject matter, as mine do, but each time you retell the story it is new, and different. and thats a fantastic skill.
Excellent
MK
Thanks. My others were crap lol and im admitting that. Though I like this one a lot - its sort of an expression of how I am feeling at the moment.
I think that in the way its good to feel regret because it doesnt have to necessarily be about your life, it can be about anything at all.
That;s ok. I didnt really like them anyway. I dont mind if you dont say anything about them - im just glad that you read them at all.
Thanks poetry princess!
Kaylan
o don't get me wrong - i like them alot, but i just liked the untitled one better, so i saved my comments for that one!
They weren't crap - not at all!
Down in the celler
I wait.
Patiantly
silently
carefull not to make a sound.
Its oh so lonely
down in the cellar
then you come down
slowely
and I freak.
You turn out the light
and I hold my breath.
I breathe in
I breathe out
carefull not to make a sound.
I feel
a hand clasp my own
its as scared as I am
down by the cellar.
Stupid voices
I push them away
but they seem to stay.
Quietly
they creep up on me
i wait paitently
for them to go away.
But they seem to stay
and I hold one last breathe.
As I hear another breath
pumping away.
I cannot move
or I will be caught.
So down in the cellar
I wait.
Patiantly
silently
carefull not to make a sound
Untill the noise dies down
and I creep away.
Awesome, Kay [img]http://s2.images.proboards.com/cheesy.gif" alt=":D" border="0"/> It has a really clear sorta "feel" to it, like u can easily understand the emotions the person is experiencing...i think its just by the waythe lines are put together and shtuff [img]http://s2.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
lol sorry if i meant it that way. lol
Suicide minuet
I dont want to see another sunset
Every minuet I sing is dragging me down.
I dont want to keep your jewel as a treasure of mine
I try to hold it to my breast but it brings me down.
Sand on the shore reassures me that this day is working out find.
In a purple fielf of black, I scream at the top of my voice.
Then I wake up and realise it's all been a dream
but still clutched in my hand is a purple stem.
I don't want to see another rising sun
Just black out theclouds and bring me down.
Children wade out in jeweled sea.
They call, but the blackness inside me refuses.
Sand on the shore reassures me that this day is working out find.
In a purple fielf of black, I scream at the top of my voice.
Then I wake up and realise it's all been a dream
but still clutched in my hand is a purple stem.
Every minuet I sing
is a flower of my own.
I shall sing it now
sing my hearts desire.
This lament shore
is like a mountanous cave.
A jeweled trifle
stabbing rifle
knife pressed to my heart.
Sand on the shore reassures me that this day is working out find.
In a purple fielf of black, I scream at the top of my voice.
Then I wake up and realise it's all been a dream
but still clutched in my hand is a purple stem.
Thankyou!!!
I like it too. Its kind of...different than my other poems a bit.
I finished reading this Marilyn Manson autobiography again and it gave me the idea of the poem.
kay
Please remember to turn off the light
so i can say goodnight
to the dark.
I'm sorry if I ever gave you a fright
or if I left a mark
in the dark.
I kiss you good bye
please say its not forever.
You hold my hand and tell me to be strong.
I close my eyes
and wait untill the sun dies down.
I hope you will not be gone for long.
Please remember to clean up after you are gone.
I don't want to
dust away your memories.
But slowely, they're fading away...
I kiss you good bye
please say its not forever.
You hold my hand and tell me to be strong.
I close my eyes
and wait untill the sun dies down.
I hope you will not be gone for long.
I must refrain myself from crying.
But inside my heart I'm dying.
Just kiss me one more time
hold me close....forget the time...
just don't go. I don't want you to be a memory.
I close my eyes
and wait untill the sun dies down.
I hope I remember to sing you this song.
its the sh*ttiest thing I've ever written. But what the heck - I was bored! [img]http://s2.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
Angelic Suicide
Withering in the water
so are you breathing?
These voices feel so alien to me,
yet they're a collection of my own mind.
Calculating the cold
the stiff water around me.
I can hear the voices again
So, am I breathing?
Misstress Death
playing her soft harp.
Harmonize me.
Is my cool water not enough?
Blood repent tears, repent ashes,
I'm going down.
When I wake up
I will try to trust this abandoment of suicide.
This method is just too alien to me
I cannot continue alone.
I cried
when the angels in my heart died.
Devils tongue now spark in me,
let me go.
Misstress Death
playing her soft harp.
Harmonize me.
Is my cool water not enough?
Blood repent tears, repent ashes,
I'm going down.
Why have you forsaken me?
In yoru arms I lie soaking
in my own blood.
Trust me.
Trust my suicide.
I deserve to die.
My angels died
for the sake of my suicide
Trust me.
Trust my suicide.
I deserve to die.
iHarrow
Harrowing blood
marrow of bone
Each cell's alive
Daughter eats daughter.
Next cell takes a new life
Draw me down in your death.
I don't want no interphase
Leave me in the snow.
I don't want no compensation
Take my breathe and save my life.
I don't want your dead salvation
Save my stone inside my soul.
Dead Angels lie, sorrow engulfs their song.
And so deep it stab's their heart.
Notes chime from the harp of hearts
playing the song of life.
Channelling anger
Dead boy calls his lifeless song.
And teh moon takes out the stars
Blood Alight.
Next time you take my hand
I will draw you in myself.
I don't want a trophy
I just want to understand.
I don't want no compensation
take my breathe and save my life.
I don't want your sweet salvation
save my stone inside my soul.
Dead Angels lie, sorrow engulfs their song.
And so deep it stab's their heart.
Notes chime from the harp of hearts
playing the song of life.
Life is so unkind
I don't want to live no more.
Anywhere from here
is where I shall go.
I don't want any respect from you
so why is this science
still alight?
Dead Angels lie, sorrow engulfs their song.
And so deep it stabs my heart.
Notes chime from the harp of hearts
Playing the song of life.
Next time you take my hand
I'll expect you'll understand.
Slither
Blood Raven
creating a haven
Stone makes stone
makes fire.
Earth denies
a new soul
to live in this world of hate.
Taken matters in my own hand
taking you down the next day.
And when you circle the snake
It will devour itself
OUROBORUS!
Forrest Slumber
I can feel myself sleep
in my arms so warm and nimble.
Draw back slowely and deep
hold me down and cover me.
The winter forrest carries my name
over hills and in deep ocean.
Realistic depth drawn from my heart
leaving my mind open.
I can feel myself sleep
take me down in winter embrace.
Etch your name in skin deep
Take my hand and follow me.
The winter forrest carries my name
over hills and in deep ocean.
Realistic depth drawn from my heart
leaving my mind open.
You're taking me away, sand from the shore calls.
Embrace my hands, cover me untill I'm smothered.
Take me to your cave, take me down with you.
Take me into you.
The winter forrest carries my name
over hills and in deep ocean.
Realistic depth drawn from my heart
leaving my mind open.
You're taking me away, taking me away. Taking me away.
Forward
Take me in your embrace
smother me with your death.
Leave me lying in the nsow
blood so thick trickling ravine.
Eat my heart and my soul
draw my energy - bloodthirst revenge.
Rape my mortality, oh so slow inside.
Crimson cremation delight.
And when we soar, we soar.
Heart of bear inside us.
Brave of soul but idiotic of mind.
Where will we go?
He calls me down into the ash
teeth like spines sharp as razors.
Take my hand and lead me in
do not leave me behind.
Slowelt draw me in your arms
hide me from the monster inside.
Create a new me, an atrocity of religion.
Plan a path, dance a dance.
And when we soar, we soar.
Heart of bear inside us.
Brave of soul but idiotic of mind.
Where will we go?
Snow shall melt
Ice shall creack
Earth shall meet with Earth
And death shall win
So take me in
only for one last time.
And when we soar, we soar.
Heart of bear inside us.
Brave of soul but idiotic of mind.
We shall find our way.
Hey!
Sorry i haven't replied for a while - i've just done two full weeks at work so have been too tired when i got home...
okay, your latest...
I liked Suicide Minuet - it was very sad, but not in a compassionate, sympathetic sadness. more of a, well, sadness for life and how things are at the moment. i liked the tone though- and the idea that it was a dream, but there was still soemthing real that came out of it - maybe a lesson?
i also liked the really long lines in that poem, the complete sentences. so often when we write poems we use more fragmented sentences, so it was really interesting that you did the opposite.
Angelic Suicide is very painful and tormenting. its different in tone to Suicide Minuet, its more regretful almost, about the act and idea of dying. it had some beautiful lines:
I cried
when the angels in my heart died.
Devils tongue now spark in me,
let me go.
My angels died
for the sake of my suicide
Trust me.
Trust my suicide.
I deserve to die.
they were my favs, and the ones that i thought contained the strongest emotions.
i have to ask - are you okay? you don't have to answer if you don;t want, but i hope you're alright.
I simply loved Slither! its gorgeous and very powerful. the imagery is fantastic!
And when you circle the snake
It will devour itself
those lines are like a warning. i love them!
OUROBORUS! what more do you need to say? this poem is excellent short -it doens't need to be any longer really. it says all it needs to say.
Harrow is very good too, although i'm not sure what it makes me feel. i cannot get a grasp on what the story is - i am thinking its about having faith in someone, understanding and trusting that person to understand and trust in you. i'm not sure. correct me if i'm way off the mark!
Next time you take my hand
I will draw you in myself.
I don't want a trophy
I just want to understand.
i really liked those lines. i thought they were the strongest and seemed to carry the whole message of the poem.
Forest Slumber is kind of menacing - like giving yourself totally and willingly to someone, and letting them take you away from everything in your world. i can relate to feeling like that. i loved the imagery in the poem. its very strong Kaylan. i like it.
Forward seems very much like Forest Slumber. i like it alot. the tone is abit different, but the theme very similiar.
Great writing
MK
Hello
lol that's ok. I think it's just me lol - I've just been writing like mad. I have more...hehe I hope you're not too stressed out. Not good. Lie down and relax!
Suicide Minuet was kind of a reflection. I was listening to Lucuna Coil's "Heaven's a Lie" and I just seemed to want to write lol. I'm not sure if it was a lesson,
It was kind of like a whole bunch of sentences in a way, not short snippets of a sentence. Maybe long verses? Who knows lol.
I sort of wanted to write about not only feelings but sort of the meaningfull spark that makes you smile, and I made that the angels. And so when they died all was sadness.
Well....hm, i'll put it simply lol
I'm drowning in an ocean
with no mean's of escape.
I said it like that cause I have a fear of open water. I guese, I have a fear of myself and the open water is my life, and that's what I'm drowning in. I pierced my arm four times these last few weeks and I've got a safety pin though one hole. I pierced my ears aagain and now ive got nine ear piercings. I cut my stomach too. I just get mood swings. One day I'll be happy joly and the next I'll be macabre. Hmm...dont know what to do..
I wrote Slither in Science actually. I like writing about circles lol. I was just so bored and a bit cranky so I just started writing.
I like the shortness of it though, and yes, the word OUROBORUS is the whole poem lol
I wrote Harrow in science too. We were learbing about cells in human's. That's where the "Daughter cells" come in. I dont know what its about either, its a mystery to me.Though your interpretation sounds right.
Those lines are really different I think. They were the message, but I dont know how they fitted in with Harrowing blood and daughter cells lol
Forward is just like Forest Slumber. I wrote them just after one another so I guese thy have the same meaning. Thye are sort of like mirro images of eath other.
I shall smile for you
Kaylan
i hope you get through it Kaylan. its hard sometimes, life and everything that goes with it. i went through a huge period of self-loathing when i was younger (about the age you are now). it was something that arose out of not truly knowing where i fit into everything - i was so different to my friends, i had such different goals and wants for my life, and i started to think there was soemthing wrong with me because of that. so i used to sit and overthink all the time - why was i different? why did i have these thoughts? it was hard because there was no one to talk to about it. i tried talking to my parents once and they didn't undertsand at all, and that just made it worse.
i was never suicidal or anything like that, but i was very angry and depressed and sad alot of the time. i tried to hide it, so not many people knew. maybe if i didn't, they would have tried to help. maybe not. i dunno. but it all changed for me when i really learnt to know myself, to accept myself for who i was and what i was. and that was different. and now, i like it. it took a long time for that to happen, but now i am comfortable with who i am. i no longer really care if i fit in. i honestly think it is something that fades with age...
so you will get through this hard time. it will get easier and you will learn to be comfortable and accepting with who you are. being scared of yourself is something that i think many people go through. i was terrified of myself, of who i am, but now, i embrace me, and i wouldn't want to be anyone else.
be happy! you are smart and talented and insightful. don't let anything take that away!
MK
Oh Kat you are too nice.
I want to, but somtimes I get thouts that I don't want to. Ive been like this for three years now. Only recently did I get a doctor and Ive had her for a while now but I'm still not happy. It's not that I want to die, I do, but in another way. Sometimes I never want to wake up in the mornings, sometimes I never go to sleep and I go outside my house and I walk to the train station behind my house and I wait and watch trains. No one knows I do that, because I walk walk very quietly and I can slip out unnnoticed.
It's not that I don't think I fit into anything, because I have a lot of friends, it's just that I don't know where to go. I think about what I want to do in life and I sing and write alot - as you probably noticed - yet I can't get there. A lot of people put me down and are very mean to me and I think that's a factor that contributes to my sadness. I think about them and I know they're nothing to my life, but they won't go away.
When you talked to your parents, what did they think? I have only told my mother, my doctor, my boyfriend sean and my best friend zack things, yet they don't do anything. Zack has a psychiatrist and he carves words into his body - so he doesnt really help even though he tries. My doctor has sessions with me where we concentrate on my goals and the good things about me, and she gave me a diary to write in, yet it's not working. I don't feel like I'm being helped.
It's not that I'm suicidal in the way that I just want to die and that's it, I just want to die in a way that I will able to come back. And I know that wont work so I don't know what to do. I really like singing and I sing about it. I write songs and poems about it, I write books about it, I do alot of things yet nothing works. I don't know why.
How old are you again? I have tried accepting myself but there are allways things that get in the way. I loose concentration a lot in class and think about those things. I sometimes cry in class and only my good friend Jack notices. He's a very kind person with the kindest brown eyes. I have written apoem about him yet I cannot remember which one it was lol My boyfriend knows about my depression, yet he's not in any of my classes so he doesn't see my sudden lapses of depression - only jack, zack, and my second best girl friend Keturah. Keturah makes me laugh and I'm glad she's my friend .
I have thought about it fading with age, and I suppose it will. But I allways imagine myself when I am older in a tower as a Queen of nothing. Alone. I don't want to but I do.
I am happy that you embrace you. Your poetry is so beautiful and I love reading it. You seem so in touch with yourself and your mind and what you want to do. I'm mildly jelous lol I don't want to be anyone else yet I don't wnat to be me. I don't make much sense lol
I will try, my friend, I will try! I am smiling slightly now as I write this, and I'm listening to one of my favourite bands Lucuna Coil. They rock! And they make me happy. Maybe I'll listen to them alot so I wont be sad. [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
Thankyou for listening
Kaylan
"I don't want a trophy
I just want to understand"
OMG Kaylan that's awesome! So to-the-point and profound ^_^ Oh and yeah I've been gone for ages, im just re-vsiting the boards for a while like for moonfair n stuff. I've still got exams to go tho so i might still be kinda busy [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/sad.gif" alt=":(" border="0"/>
Welcome back Ry
That's ok. I've noticed your absense Ry lol I've been missing your poetry. Thankyou so much for your comment. All comments count!
That line means that I don't want anything to make me happy, because it will all be in the way. It means I just want to understand and then I will be ok.
Hey.
umm, when i told my parents, they didn't really say much. i can't remember now what i said or what they said, but i do remember having the conversation with them over and over in my head before it happened, so i think i have their real reactions confused with their imagined ones...i think i also dumbed it down a bit because i didn't want them to freak out or to misjudge me.
i had alot of mean people to deal wtih at school too. they really really got me down. i went ot a very small school where one day, your friends could turn against you and you had no one else to go to. people are always swayed by what the popular kids are doing, and at those times, when the popular kids were having a go at me, those kids who were my friends most of the time would stand by and not do anything, because they didn't want it to happen to them. i never hated my friends for it - i understood the pressure they were under, that we were all under, coexisitng in a small space.
its funny - now, i can look at those people and think, what did you ever have that i thought i wanted? and you know what? i realised that alot of their bullying came from jealously. i was good at school, good at sport, and they weren't. so they picked on me to cover their own inadequacies. maybe that is what your bullies are doing?
i understand what you mean about not wanting to die and be dead, but to die and be something else. its about transformation. shedding a skin if you like. you still want to retain the main sense of you, but in a different way. i hope you can find a way to do that. its not easy, but once it happens, you will finally feel free and feel like the you you were meant to be. at least, thats what happened to me, and thats how i felt.
how old am i? i am 27. i've had alot of time to get used to who i really am, and i guess, to be honest, the real acceptance has only come in the last 2 years. i have found my course in life - i am a writer, i am a musician, and i am a teacher - and i feel complete in that aspect of myself. there are still so many things i feel i need to accomplish before the end, but i am willing to wait patiently for them to appear for me.
what do you mean by you can't get there? are you talking about what you want to do with your life? if so, i can tell you from my own experiences, that i have changed my mind so many times over the past 10 years. i am there now, but it took longer than i thought. don't push it too hard. your path in life will appear when you least expect it. for the moment, concentrate on being yourself and having fun with life, doing the things you love. don't feel you have failed because you cannot be sure where your life is headed. not yet. you are 15(?) - plenty of time, trust me [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/cheesy.gif" alt=":D" border="0"/> just do what makes you happy - do not try and organise your life to suit others, and if people are pressuring you, tell them to back off. i had to tell my mother to back off - she was all about jobs, and security and things like that - things that just are not that important to me, not in the big picture.
and hey, i never had any trains to watch. i used to sit up a tree or go to the park and swing on the swings for hours! i felt peaceful and at peace with myself when i did it. like i was outside time and space, or something.i wouldn't even think when i did it - i just did it. or i'd go for a walk in the mines in the bush behind my house - i'd just sit and look at everything around me.
i hope you find your way. actually, i know you'll find your way.
MK
Hello [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
I was like that. I didn't tell my parents straight up, my mother came to me because of my mood swings. I always used to converse with myself, pretending that I was my mother and I would create imaginary answers that she would say that would tell me what to do. I didn;t tell my mother everything, I haven't even told my doctor the worst parts because mainly I don't know what I want to say.
My school is a average high school. I am in year ten, and I know I shouldn't be annoyed by people's thoughts and feelings about me, but sometimes I do worry about what they think or what they are going to say. Your school is like my primary school. If I fought with my friend's I would allways end up being by myself untill I made up. Though I did a lot of thinking during thouse periods of having no friends, and that every time we made up I allways had something to say when we weren't friends again. lol It might not seem nice, but it made me stronger.
Perhaps that it what it is, but perhaps it's not. They are my boyfriend's best mates and I have no idea why they are his friend's. My boyfriend was actually the one who told my boyfriend to ask me out, so why he doesn't like me makes no sense to me. And I don't know why he doesn't like me. It's not like I'm a supermodel or anything lol
That's exactly what I want to do. I debate about it endlessly, the ways I want to do it and will I ever do it, yet I haven't come to any conclusion yet. All I want is to feel free. It might sound wierd, but I've allways dreamed of just once jumping of a cliff and living because I have the will to live.
That's cool. Wow you're nearly thirty! I'm going to have to make you a card [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
What do you teach? I am sure I've read you mentioning that you teach before lol I would like to eb a writer, a musicion, and a philosopher. So many things that are so far way lol
I guese so. I know what I want to do with my life. After high school I want to go to University and stusy philosohpy, I want to go to Finland, I want to be a singer and learn opera, and I wnat to be a published poet and author. I like doing all these things but I just don't know how to get there. I hope that soon I find the way.
lol 15 is so young, I know. Im a little scared of getting old though. Not twenties old but 40's 50's old lol. Im just scared I will be still as I am.
I try to do that. I read, I write, I run, I sing and I try to make new friends. I think from now on I will do what you do and forget about people who don't matter. They don't know me and I don't want to know them, so why should they care?
I LOVE swings lol When I go to the park with my younger sister I climb up on the swingset and sit there or I clib on the top of the roof of the playground. I love being in a hight place - one reason why I love rollercpasters! - I just love looking at things.
Thankyou. I hope so too and I know I will. Even if it takes me a while.
Kaylan
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i think, maybe in your boy's mates instance, that he is scared you are taking his friend away. one of my boyf in high school had a mate like that - he really disliked me, for no reason i could see, until i found out through another friend that it was because i was taking up his mates time [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/tongue.gif" alt=":P" border="0"/> its a silly thing, but jealously can turn people into absolute monsters.
i teach English. i absolutely love it. i teach at a really small school, so everyday we are dealing with upset kids whose friends don;t like them anymore. its so b!tchy, but there are not many kids, and if a friendship falls apart, they have no one to turn to. it is very primary school behaviour, but when there are not many people to choose from, kids guard their friendships rather jealously and have little to no tolerance for any differences.
i love heights! love them! i used to sit on my roof at home and watch the moonrise. it was cool. my dad and i would sit there together and watch storms roll in over the mountains. it was so peaceful. i loved it.
something my dad said to me once has stuck wtih me. he said not to worry about those people who don't like you, that they are probably not worth knowing anyway. i would try and work things out with people, but sometimes you just have to let go. i had to let a friend go several years ago, and for ages i felt so bad about it, but i had tried so hard to put things right between us, and she obviously enjoyed taking refuge in her hatred of me rather than wanting to work it out, so i stepped away. it was the best thing to do.
you will work it out. i know it. and know i'm always here to talk and spout my sagely advice whenever you need it [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/tongue.gif" alt=":P" border="0"/> .
MK
and yes, 30 is getting ever closer, but i look forward to ageing, and to the lessons that you learn as you grow older.
