Well that seem's very clear to me now. His mates allways draw him away from me at lunchtimes or find a reason to talk to him whilse im talking to him. They call my sticky friend Channa Toad man because he's in special needs and wont leave me alone. And because of this, they feel they have the need to have extra talks about things to leave me alone with channa because they laugh about the fact that Channa likes me
I'd love to be in your class! What grade do you teach? You should read them your poetry if you dont allready. You say its primary cshhol behavious so it must be a higher grade. Do you intercept with any of their figts to tell them that they're arguing over nothing? What's your title lol
I really do. I would love to do that but my house is the second oldest in our area and we dont wnat any damage to it because we're still renting. I would love to watch the moon and the sun rise. I have slept on my trampoline once when no one knew and I tried to watch them but I fell asleep lol
When I was younger we used to have barbeques a lot and my dad and my sister and I used to talk about the stars and he used to give us lessons about what they are and what their names were. I enjoyed it alot. Now he's gone all grumpy with age. He's 36 i think and he acts like he's fifty sometimes lol Shh dont tell him ;P
My dad said that too! I ask people who dont like me when we are fighting why they dont like me, and the answers i get are that i am wierd. I find that an unsuitable answer lol I know I am wierd, what's new?
Last year I was dating a boy who was a year older than me. He was in year ten and i was in year nine and he seemed liked the perfect person. Turned out that I offended him by saying he had goofy hair (and he does! its stupid!) and so he told his friend, (which just happened to be the girl who i got into a previosu fight with and made us get suspended) and she punched me. Then we broke up. I was sad for a while but I gpt over it because he is an idiot and he's very ugly. Inside and out. My loveley sean is just so beautiful and i say ha ha to him lol
I see what you mean about ageing, and it is true that the older you are, the wiser you are. It still seems a little scary though, maybe because im still young lol
Thanks for the advice
Kaylan
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Hey!
where i teach is a central school, and there is less than 200 kids from K-12, so i know pretty much all the kids, even the ones i don't teach. but i have a year 8, 9 and 12 Advanced English classes, and i teach 12 Ancient History. So i am mainly in the high school, except for my primary playground duties.
yeah, u have to get involved in the fights. for one thing, it shows the kids you care about them and their welfare, and secondly, you can maybe offer some advice to them about how to deal wtih the problem. at the moment, some of the girls are fighting over a boy ( [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/tongue.gif" alt=":P" border="0"/>) and i told both of them that their friendship was not worth ruining. they are only in Year 8, and i tried to impress upon them that many more boys will come along and all thsi will seem silly later on. i have also told them that, due to the small number of eligible boys in the school, they will have to share [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/grin.gif" alt=";D" border="0"/>. i mean, by the end of year 10, my mates and i had pretty much gone out with the same boys (there were only 10 kids in my grade)...
the primary kids are more exciting when they fight, they use sticks [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/grin.gif" alt=";D" border="0"/> i had to break up a stick-up the other day - they are little, so its easy. and earlier this year, we pretty much had a riot in the high school...it was very messy...there are some troubled kids at my school, so it can be interesting sometimes.
Hey!
that is a small school! At my school there are way more.. In some classes there are too mnay people, and in my art class the tables are crowded. In QLD here they dont have kindy and its stupid. I used to live in NSW and i hate the way the school system works here!
Thats a very good thing to do. Most teachers at my school send you to the office and you get suspended like that *clicks fingers*.At my school all year 8's are boasty and they try to take over the school, being in year ten its stupid to me, i wasnt like that.
Ten kid's holy cheecake! That is so small. How was it like going out with everyone? That must of been really wierd lol There are so many boys in my grade that I don't even know some of them lol
lol A riot? How did that manage to happen. That sound's disaterous. I hope no one got hurt lol. It doesn't sound like a school, more like a protest lol
Stick fights are beter i think. Not that rough and easy to handle, unless the stick pokes you in the eye lol
Im going to bed now. I hope you have a nice night.
Tata
Kaylan
xx
Here's a poem for you Kat!
All I wanted
Deep padding paws
linger on the edge
I embrace the life it gives me
breathing into my soul.
A wild one is she
immortality like no other.
Fly's like the septor of truth
across the midnight sky.
Just another day
her voice carries across the lake.
Tied through feelings
such words I must remember.
A voice like no other
whispers across the pool of death.
The water is dust
her voice the creation of all hope.
A dark cloud rises each day
in my swirling life so somber.
I don't belive my life
is ever woth her heart.
Yet someway I sail with her
across the sea's without destruction.
And when we reach hope's home
we will live without distraction.
Just another day
her voice carries across the lake.
Tied through feelings
such words I must remember.
I will let it go, let it go.
and she shall know, oh she shall know
she's a jewel of the sea
brought forth to me
with words like violets
that sing all there is to say.
oh i love it i love it i love it!
thats so beautiful, its just gorgeous. Thank you [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/grin.gif" alt=";D" border="0"/>
i have saved it to my computer so i can read it again later!
Yah!
MK
Thank you Kat!
I wrote it quite fast though I tried to make it extra special. I added the paws part because of your name too!
Kay
Feelings
When you're touched by feelings
when you're tied to feelings
when you're touched by feelings
Painfull silence
thrashing violence
I have taken in
a whole new world.
It's such cruelty
a whole new me
I don't want a friend
I just want to understand.
I want it
I need it
it's your fear
that's my heart.
Simple and carefree
a necesity
that lays you in my arms.
Touched by flowers
violet fragrance
So much interval
it's so trivial.
Open fire
a desire
find the heart in me
the destined atrocity.
I want it
I need it
it's your fear
that's my heart.
Simple and carefree
a necesity
that lays you in my arms.
I tried it
I denied
the safety
that was your heart.
Now I do see
I'm a new me
that lay's you in my arms.
When you're touched by feelings
when you're tied to feelings
when you're touched by feelings
you embrace those feelings.
hi kay.
wow you really are an amazing writer, i've read a few of your poems here and there and they are all so amazing. very insightful and mature (not that im really one to judge that as im only a year older but you appear so to me). i only read a few from this page but i really enjoyed the untitled one at the top, angelic suicide, harrow and that 2nd and 3rd last lines in slither were great. im not much of poet at all, so i cant really give you any constuctive criticisms but if its encouragement you need im with ya all the way.
i must admit ive read most of this page and your posts to kat have sombred me, i feel like saying something to help but im sure nothing i have to say is much help, it seems kat is the perfect one for you to talk to though, she seems to know so much about this whole life stuff.
anyway she is deffinately right in saying dont listen to what kids at school say they can be so harsh (i think im guilty of being a bit B**chy sometimes too) alot of the time i think its this whole group mentality, sheep thing. anything different is a threat so they all gang up and attack as a single unit, merciless, but you've just got to take it in your stride.
i can see you going somewhere kay your extemely talented im sure youll have no problem, and at least you know what your strengths are and where you wanna go. unlike me i have no clue what i want to do and i havent really got a true passion for anything in life, im unmotivated so im gonna have a problem lol, in fact more and more ive been feeling myself getting quite depressed deep down, i think ive contained it alright so far but i can feel it there, i think thats why i enjoyed your poems so much, i was reading them and thinking wow she really knows how to say it, like that first one on this page its untitled but i kind of have been feeling like that a lot lately, and these past couple of weeks its not been helped by the fact i have exams this week.
anyway im gonna keep a check on your thread here so keep the poems coming.
Esspess
hello Esspess
Thankyou for your comments. It's quite funny because many people think I am quite older than I actually am in my writing. I'm loving it lol
Those poems are allright I guese. I just wrote them moping in science class lol so don't mind if they are a little off [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/tongue.gif" alt=":P" border="0"/>
I don't really mind whether you give constructive comments on my poems - hey, your comment right now was constructive, so what are you on about girlie lol - I just like it that
some people read them so as long as you do, then that's great.
Hmm....*deep breath* ...Sometimes it doesn't take words to show sympathy. Just replying on this thread is enough. And you're right in away about talking to Kat, I really like having mini conversations by posts because it just lets me get things out that I wouldn't say to anyone else around me.
About school, I was politely sitting in the corner with my boyfriend where we hang around at lunch and Sean's (my boyfriend's) friends came up and soaked me with the bubbler. To me, it was extrememly childish. It's like they have no life because all they do is torment me. Anyway, so I was soaking and Sean got a mild sprinkle by the water, and what happened? - I nearly got a detention for being wet. Lukily, sean's friend's (for some reason I cannot fathom) said it was their falt and that Samara(that's me because I look liek the girl off the Ring yeah haha..not) was just in the way. Now don't you think I would of been more angry about that? Hmm...So I swore and got a detention.
I am so glad that you can relate to my lovely little problems lol, though I don't think you should stress about not nowing what to do. For me it was easy because I wrote stories for my sister and so I want to be a published author, but for you I think you've just got to think about what you like doing the most. Look it up, talk about it, ask about it - anything! It will help you in more ways that you think.
Why don't you express what you feel in words? I find it very good and it calms down my anger quite a lot. There's allways room for another poetry primcess!
Kaylan
[img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/grin.gif" alt=";D" border="0"/> there is definatley more room for more poetry princesses!
hey Kalyan, i meant to send you a PM to say thanks for my b-day message...so Thank You! i had an awesome day - did nothing! it was great!
MK
lol That's ok!! I was going to make you an ecard but it was a little harder than it looks lol
Im glad you had anice day doing nohing!
Princess Prisoner
It's just another day being swamped right out of your mind
It's just another way being scared with nothing to find.
I couldn't care less what you do with your life
I just want you to stay out of mine.
Destiny shades
there is another in the foreground.
Is she who I am, who I want to be?
Descending with a smile.
It's just another way to let go of your life
just another swipe with the blade of your knife
Could it be that you've been scared from my sight?
I don't wan't your fear drowning my heart tonight.
Destiny shades
there is another in the foreground.
Is she who I am, who I want to be?
Descending with a smile.
It's been me all along
it's been me with the song.
Walking through fields of silence
thinking I had all there was to want.
I've not been me all along
just another coil latched to the long.
Tanning sun's, summer spirals,
Unforgettable sadness calling itself my name.
Destiny shades
there is another in the foreground.
Is she who I am, who I want to be?
Descending with a smile.
Evil's End
Explicit sunset
this is the road to no return.
As death is set down
and coils of sixes tripplets as their name.
Call me, undress me
Your path has been ready for eon's.
My bloo - thirst must be quenched
before time is drowned.
Welcome, my friend
I greet thee arm's open.
Prepare for ultimate battle,
crusifixion like never before.
Frightening freezers hold the stock,
the rape of humanity
devil's six sins.
Where one peace was all beauty
dust remain's as earth eats earth.
Last sin's are done,
repent my sin's to my loved ones.
Stung by wasps to early to feed
the end calls their early greed.
This god's failure is a whole,
why shalt they listen to my plan's?
Aetheist or Antichrist?
I betsow the devil.
My childrem toy with sharp spine razors.
O now the world is deeply scarred
buildings crash
and mountain's crash.
O such a sight to be seen
if only my eye's were not hollows.
Face down in ash we sleep
idiots till the ens.
We come like drumming thunder when we wake
peace stolen like virginity theft by the devil's son.
Uncarring, unworthy,
we follow severed path.
Trusting the green snake
lived up to it's name.
And now as earth dies,
scorches, birds cry like angel's weep
there is no more us.
Who laughs now when earth got what was comming?
Who listened and lost?
Imagine all the people who knew,
but lay face down in the sand.
Untitled
My hands feel nimble under your touch
drowning, drowning through spindly vines.
My wh0re calls my name, yet I forget she.
Her presence deterioates my philosophic mind.
Black embers roast in the garden
Gedden god calls for his armour.
Petals die as she who is not she walks my path
and she comes to me with blood embrace.
Naked she wraps her body around me
and consumed am I under deep forrest loom.
Evil becomes my sweat as I meet with death
there shall be no tomorrow.
Hey Kaylan!
i really really loved the Untitled one - its brillant! such strong imagery, made even stronger i think because i know what you are going through at the moment!
i simply adore the reference to gedden calling for his armour - thats excellent!
these are my fav lines from that one:
Petals die as she who is not she walks my path
and she comes to me with blood embrace.
its like an acknowlegement that there is a part of you that you know is not the true you. very nice writing! one of my favs of yours i think!
i really enjoyed Evils End. i like the concept that you are playing with - sins, the devil and the fall and ultimate evil of humanity. i really like it! its very philosophical. i love the last two lines in particular -
Imagine all the people who knew,
but lay face down in the sand.
thats such a strong statement, esp in the world climate of today. it speaks of the fact that we have eyes to see and ears to hear, but decide to bury ourselves, believing its not our problem, or that the evil can never be our fate.
Very nice!
i like Princess Prisoner - its very symbolic for you at the moment, yes? i think you did a good job expressing how you feel at the moment with this poem. i love the 'chorus' -
Destiny shades
there is another in the foreground.
Is she who I am, who I want to be?
Descending with a smile.
its like there is a new person coming, something emerging from under your skin, and they are smiling. perhaps they are the new you, but its like you are not sure whether to accept them yet.
excellent work! Love it!
MK
Thankyou. I tried to write straight from the heart. I had a chat to my doctor yesterday and i didnt really get anywhere. I told her about my habbits (my eating and just usual day to day "oddidties") and just about how I feel. And she told me to do what I do best and so I did. I wrote!
My personal favourites were Untitled and Evil's end. I tried with Evil's End to write like Apocopyptic style because of my own personal beliefs and I think that it shone quite clearly!
Princess Prosoner for me was one I liked and one I hated. Its just the fact that i wrote it is teh part i hate about it, but i love it because its my true feelings. I'm really not sure what to think
But thankyou for replying and critiquing. You done an excellent job my friend Kat [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
Kaylan
xo
Salvation
A true dance is like death
a step into the wind.
A true breath is like hope
wondering what will happen next.
I will sing
I will dance
I will die...
Catch my tears
allways running down.
Cease my pain
turn my frown upsidedown.
Candles light as I reach the room
a solemn gloom increases when I'm near.
Draw the closure and release the gloom
spindly leg's untangle
a salvation is here.
A true wonder is like knowing that you are wrong
a true verse is nothing like a song.
And you lie, knowing you will cause me pain.
And yet I die, Oh I know I'll relive this again.
I will sing
I will dance
I will die...
Catch my tears
allways running down.
Cease my pain
turn my frown upsidedown.
Candles light as I reach the room
a solemn gloom increases when I'm near.
Draw the closure and release the gloom
spindly leg's untangle
a salvation is here.
I dare you to take me to the spinning rooftops
I dare you to let me go.
I dare you to wonder where I'm going to be
when i'm no more.
'Cau'se I'll sing
I'll lie
I'll die....
Catch my tears
allways running down.
Cease my pain
turn my frown upsidedown.
Candles light as I reach the room
a solemn gloom increases when I'm near.
Draw the closure and release the gloom
spindly leg's untangle
a salvation is here.
hey, this poem is about my boyfriend.
Kitten
I see your soul
and it frightens me half to death.
I hear your voice
and it brings me back to life.
You sing your song
quietly so no one hears you.
Though I'm open ears
I just know I have to listen.
Moonlight dances on the porches
raindrops fall like shooting stars.
And underneath this, there is a smiling soul
who underneath is on fire.
You hold my hand
soflty so you don't harm me.
You're like a blindfolded priest
watches where you go.
And when you think that you're
making a mistake.
You try to undo it
though I just don't want to listen.
I know I can be so harsh to you
I know, sometimes my words are like burns.
I know, I'm so sorry for my emptyness
I'm so sorry for my unforgiveness.
Do you remember
when I told you my life?
Do you remember
when you crowned me your wife?
And I'm still younger
nothing to call my own really.
And I'm under
you take me under with you
Teardrops dance along
underneath those painfull thing you call your eyes.
Teardrops laugh.
You want to, be your god and take control of me
but I'm me
and that's a differen't, harder story.
Moonlight dances on the porches
raindrops fall like shooting stars.
And underneath this, there is a smiling soul
who underneath is on fire.
My end
1
I never
never thought we'd stay together.
Ever
not even in this stormy weather.
Which brings me down
i crash forever
oh i'm not all right.
I just want to stay forever.
Forever allright.
Its forever, and ever and ever and ever and ever.....ever
chorus
But after all the things you put me through
and all the things that you made me view.
I'm always so alone, always so alone.
So tonight, tonight is my end.
2
I never
never lied this sweet december.
Ever
Not ever when we weren't together.
Which tells me that
i'm yours forever.
Is that allright?
Can I sleep next to you forever?
And ever and ever and ever and ever.......
chorus
But after all the things you put me through
and all the things that you made me view.
I'm always so alone, always so alone.
So tonight, tonight is my end.
So leave me now and go away from me
don't want you back this is the end of our story.
'Cause I'm always so alone, always so alone.
And tonight, tonight is my end.
Hey Kay [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
Wow i really like the one you wrote for Sean (thats your boy, right?). its so lovely - has he read it? its almost like a confession of sorts, an apology, a true statement of all you are feeling. its great that you can be honest about it all. relationships are hard sometimes [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/undecided.gif" alt=":-/" border="0"/>.
i really enjoyed Salvation. its like a plea to be saved, and its very heartfelt and beautiful, very open. i like the understated verse
i will sing
i will dance
i will die...
very simple yet powerful. nicely done. i like the repeition of 'i will' throughout the poem. it works because it is so direct.
i really like this too:
I dare you to take me to the spinning rooftops
I dare you to let me go.
I dare you to wonder where I'm going to be
when i'm no more.
even though it says 'i dar', i don't think that it means that as a challenge - it seems more to me like its a cry for help, as it has a questioning feel to it - more like a 'please don't' feel. correct me if i'm way off....
but its a beautiful poem - i felt i could relate to it. we have all felt lost before, and needed help, and i think your poem captured that feeling.
Excellent as always,
your faithful friend
MK
hello:)
Thanks! Yes, he's my boyfriend .He doesn't really read my poetry, unless I force him to lol I think i'm the boss of our relationship he he, But i will make sure he read's this.
It's called Kitten because he has this really wierd but sweet purring noise he makes when he's trying to make me happy, and his smile is like a cheshire cat lol
Salvation is just that - like an appeal, a want or need. I wrote "I dare" because it's challenging. The salvation is the person who makes them happy and they're daring them to do just that, to make them happy. It's like a little game in a way. The person is daring them in a playfull way because they love them.
I found it like a soft poem, sort of one you could sway to when it's being read. It's sort of calming I guese though it's meaningfull.
Thankyou my good interpreter friend!
Kaylan
x
Life
Life is my sacrfice
say what you want to,
I wont hear.
Time is pain to me,
show what you want to,
it's not real
to me.
Spin me round and round and round and round and round.
I don't care for such games.
Life is like a chain with each coil of events that just keep
rappidly paasing me by.
Time to me isn't easy to find
time to me isn't easy to unwind.
There will always be a shadow
there will allways a caster
there will allways be a sacfrice.
I'm too scared to get wet.
hey!
i like that one - i liked the reference to time and to water, esp the last line - "i'm too scared to get wet" - the poem is about plunging into life, is it not? and about being frightened of taking that plunge?
i like the length of it - its short and sweet, and doesn't really need to be any longer.
great
MK
Thanks and you are spot on. I felt it was a bit stupid, but I guese its ok. Im writing another now [img]http://s4.images.proboards.com/smiley.gif" alt=":)" border="0"/>
Evil's harm
Silence is violence
curtained compliance
This world is under seige
a momentual god is pleased.
Thwarted trickery
the gods have been displeased
No more this world shall be
under the curtain of insanity.
I saw it, the moment
you're heart was slain down.
So now my journey
will allways be
to save this world from evil's harm.
Flower's are open
their petals broken
No more beauty is whole
a justice is foretold.
And they saw it
in their goblet's.
But they didn't take a stand
they didn't understand.
I saw it, the moment
you're heart was slain down.
So now my journey
will allways be
to save this world from evil's harm
I heard
the thunder crash down.
I saw
You're body fall to the ground.
And I wept
and I stole
I killed for you my darling
I killed the evil.
I saw it, the moment
you're heart was slain down.
So now my journey
will allways be
to live without the fear of evil's harm.
Blood Raven
You sink your teeth into my lips
the blood it trickles down my chin.
It leaves a trail stained on my skin
one only so worthy can choose to win.
The crimson trail it leaves it so cold
it marks a story which is to unfold.
When unlocked it will be left to befold
so you should just do what you're told.
The Blood Raven sweeps me off my feet
it clears away my stained sins.
It devours me like i'm the one kind left to taste.
Its the only one left in this game who can win.
Its the blood Raven
Blood Raven
Blood Raven...