Thank you guys. That's one of my very few well, honest, poems. I'm working on another one now, and i have to say it feels good to be writing about me personally. Thought story-telling still has its draws, obviously... I'm back to writing!!! I must say, it feels good. Tehy arn't great, and they need edited, but i'm just very happy to be writing real words again!!!! I hope you guys enjoy. As always, i'm extrememly thankful to you guys for reading and commenting, you have no idea how much it means to me.
These Words Are Mine
These are my words,
My soul, my truth,
Wrapped in a string,
My gift to you.
These are my feelings,
I’ve learned how to hide,
I’m sorry, it’s true,
That’s why I’m leaving you.
These are my fears:
That you’ll forgive me,
When I can’t forgive myself,
That you’ll run after me,
When I’m trying my hardest,
To run away from you.
These are my wishes:
That I had seen the truth,
Sooner.
Seen who I needed,
Sooner.
Seen you,
Sooner.
These are my lies:
Of every second,
Of every day,
I showed you who
I thought you needed.
But it wasn’t the real me,
And that’s exactly who
You really needed to hold.
These are my apologies,
I hold them in my hand,
But I can’t let them go.
They are not enough,
To fix what I broke.
These are my words,
My words to you,
But I can’t give them up,
Because they hold more truth,
Than I have ever told you before.
I’m sorry,
But these words are mine.
If you want truth,
You’re going to have to find your own-
But these words are mine,
Just like I should have been yours.
I should have been yours.
If only I had been me.
And...
Apart
I don’t dare open my eyes,
For fear of seeing the lies,
But it’s true,
I just want to be here with you.
I remember that day,
You moved in with me,
And also the way,
You made me see,
I just want to be here with you.
Then the rain poured in,
And it washed away,
All the armor and lies,
Till only the truth remained,
And it wasn’t enough,
To hide the darkness,
In you.
So you screamed –
Please don’t tear this apart,
Please, don’t tear me apart.
You’re tearing us apart.
I ran through the tears,
I ran from the years spent alone,
I ran from you.
I ran from the memories of you,
And how you made me whole.
Then the tears,
They washed it away,
All the armor and lies,
Till only the truth remained,
And it wasn’t enough,
To hide the darkness,
In me.
So I screamed –
Please don’t tear this apart,
Please don’t tear me apart.
You’re tearing it apart.
So I screamed,
And I ran back to you,
But you weren’t there,
And I searched everywhere,
But you weren’t there.
So I cried –
Why did I,
Tear it all apart,
Tear my heart open wide,
I’m tearing it,
I’m tearing it all apart.
I was sitting all alone,
In our empty apartment,
When you walked in.
You saw me there,
Curled up on the floor,
And you –
Screamed.
Please don’t tear this apart.
Please don’t tear me apart.
You’re tearing my heart apart.
And I cried,
In your arms,
As I whispered to you,
I’ll find the glue,
And you said-
Please don’t fall apart,
It isn’t your fault,
My heart turned whole,
The moment I held you.
Just please,
Don’t ever be apart from me.
